LONG day!

I got up and went to school and found out there was an assembly. ugh so 1st and 2nd went by WAY slow. I came home and read, and took nap. I was told the 1st assembly was based on 4th and so seminary had 1st and so I went to the assembly which was the drumline and for once it was WAY WAY lame! Then I went to seminary to find out we had 2nd assembly and I was SO mad I wanted to cry because I really have been needing a lesson from seminary and I'v gotten nothing for about a week. :*( Then Nate and I left and went to coldstone, then wal-mart, then DI, then went to his car and he drove me around to all these scenary places.
The thing is, he is nice but I don't like him more then a friend and I am pretty sure he likes me more then a friend. Well I am off to work fmor 6-8:15, then I told him we would go see the pond after I get off to see if it glows at night. UGH what a long day, I have a headache too. I'm trying to eat healthy though. I just wanna sleep. I am off for the night.
Wish me luck with Nate.
Love always,
Holly Jean

Double shift?

I did not sleep well at all!! It could be cuz I was textin tell like 1:30 or 2ish. I kept falling in and out of sleep so it doesnt help the good sleeping process. I decided not to bring my cell phone to school for the beginner part. I survived just fine :D yay! During TA I went to the library and got the book "my sisters keeper" :) Then had to walk around the WHOLE school and out to portables to hand out midterm packets to teachers. My midterms are good :D All A's cuz i am so awesome! Then I went home and read and then off to seminary. I really needed a good lesson today but seniors had to walk to the institute building to register for institute. I was totally fine with that I just needed a lesson... I love my seminary teacher Brother Wardle but he doesn't pick on me as much which is fine but then I feel less important and makes me feel less spiritual and that he doesnt care as much. But he does just doesnt ever seem to ask whats wrong anymore like he used to. I miss that. :( Then I had to work at 3:30-6 it was pretty awesome. We have good times me and my employees, somedays haha
Then I came home and chilled for a bit then we went out to Coldstone YAY!!! Man I am just gaining for and more pounds, this isnt healthy. Then Cory called me from work saying they needed help cuz they have been way busy so I hurried home and got ready adn went to help. By the time I got there no one was really there so I helped stock and put things back into order. But Cory was in a bad mood :( I hate when he is in a bad mood. After an hour I left and here I am.
So I like Cory but everytime we make plans I lie and say something came up or I forgot to do this or whatever. I hate lying but why do I like him until our plans are almost there then I bail? Why am I so afraid of seeing him when I know he is way nice and hasnt done anything wrong? Were just friends too and we have a good time when we hang out. hmm I just dont get myself sometimes.
Period came today, its been a month 1/2 so now I dont have to worry. I'm sometimes afraid that one day when I still am not married that I wont have my period anymore and then I wont be able to have kids. I doubt that will happen but I still worry sometimes.
Well I am off to read my scriptures.
Love,
Holly Jean
p.s. my stretch marks sometimes hurt or are like sore. I hope thats normal. haha

Monday Monday

I got up for the day, it wasn't way bad outside but it was windy. We had a sub in Child care, oh joy! I hate the people in that class sometimes cuz lots of people talk about mormon stuff or whatever not in a nice way. Today they were talking about how they would never go on missions (they are girls) girls dont have to go so gosh! Then they were talking about what all the return missionaries have done and blah blah blah. But not everyone is perfect so dont think that everyone is like those couple bad missionaries. GRRR
The off to food YES!! I was so hungry, sadly my best friend Kate wasnt there :( and she didnt even text me back. Then off to foods class and CJ wasnt there thank heavens!!! :D We just did worksheets. Boring haha Then to yearbook, which was also boring. I just started putting together the 4 page spread about myself. I started writing my high school story, I got to 2 pages long and then school was over. Then I just relaxed and try to take a nap but people kept texting me!!!! and interuptting and grr i just was getting angry. Then I went to work, that wasn't bad. Nick makes me laugh haha and Cory worked with me for a bit, ive missed him so much. He just makes me smile. Then I came home oh yay
so i'm off to bed.
days just keep going by so fast
love,
Holly Jean

Crazy Sundays

I got up around 9 to get ready for Stake Conference. We got there and it was pretty good. Very spiritual, I didnt take TONS of notes though, my mom and I were trying to figure out this crossword puzzle. There was this little redhead girl 2 rows ahead of us and she was just SO cute, I've decided I want a redhead kid so I have to search for a redhead guy now haha
Laura made a little comment saying how I made her smile today just by seeing me. Thats so sweet :D
I came home and kept reading more of that book, its pretty crazy and long it seems. I am just so lazy and need to start exercising or something!!! Then we went to Merrill Osmonds fireside. Just before that i asked Tucker and Jessica if they liked the Osmonds and they both said no. How could they not!! They are amazing spiritual people. It suprised me. But I went and it was great, Merrills oldest son spoke first and he was just funny and sweet. Then Merrill came, and he was just wonderful. I never realized how much their family had down missionary work wise and everything. Then I had to give the prayer, I was nervous for saying a prayer in front of so many people so i spoke way fast and wished I hadnt afterward :(
But afterwards Merrill shook my hand :D It was great. You could tell by his presence how close he was to the Lord.
Now I came home and have been listening to old music like the carpents, queen, Jackson 5. I was born in the wrong time I think haha
Oh Tucker I have noticed texts me every Sunday saying something to the lines of "In case you don't hear it enough just though I would let you know you are a BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER OF GOD!" Thats so sweet huh? I think he probably sends it to more girls then just me. But I'd like to think its just to me ;)
He is such a sweet guy most the time haha
Well I better get some sleep.
Love always,
Holly Jean

Slept in

Oh I slept in it was great!!! SO refreshing. Last night at work was crazy Jorge just walked out for some reason not sure why yet. And cars kept coming and more people it was crazy I wanted to scream!!! ahh but it all went okay. I pretty much miss Cory, I havent seen him in a week. :(
Today waS just relaxing I just was lazy then got ready and worked on my graduating annoucnments and got them down, just need 2 more addresses and they are complete. :D Yay how exciting!!! Then just been chilling out here not doing much else but reading this book I got called "The memory keeper's daughter", its not too bad pretty good. I wanted to find the "My sisters keeper" book but can't find it anywhere. I am off for the night.
Night!
Love,
Holly Jean

Who cares anymore

Here are some pictures from the adventure at the ZOO!!!

Me being eaten by a Lion, AHH

I STOPPED the world!
< This is my new boyfriend, George, he's a good kisser haha

Today wasn't bad I just went to class, and helped some peer tutors make cookies, and muffins. It was pretty fun, Kendall didnt want to do much though haha. Then off to the office, ugh so boring. I was kinda of angry too so I just sat there. It always seems like they want me to talk to them but then when I start it seems like they dont want me to! ugh I just don't get it.
Then I went home to relax and took a little nap, didn't do much.
Now I am angry though, I'm tying not to be but ugh I'm graduating and part of my family can't even come it just seems pointless to even graduate when your own family won't support you. I worked hard for nothing, except for myself. But I do enough for myself.
Anyway my brother might not be able to come which I understand why I just really hope he gives an effort to try to come, and then my sister (stephanie) isn't going cuz she has a scuba class, that I guess she "can't" miss cuz she might miss an important lesson BUT I think she could miss ONE for her OWN sister! I went to all of theirs, and I know I HAD to cuz I was still young but I wanted to! You only graduate from high school once! I just am angry about it!
I then went to seminary in a bad mood, we had some fun, but I just didnt feel like learning much today. Now I am just watching tv tell I have to work from 4:30-12. Ugh oh joy!

< Here is my other man Mr. Magnet. He can do just about anything! He is pretty flexible! :D What a handsome man.
Him and I are gonna go on an adventure someday and I'll show you all the pictures!!!
Well wish me luck at work! night
Love,
Holly Jean

Long day

Today was take your child to work day, so my mom took me to work with her. I had to get up at like 5:15am though ugh! She files at the wells fargo bank in Salt Lake. It was really pretty fun just I was sleepy lol
We did some fun activities only I was the oldest out of all the kids! like a 5 years difference lol
I did get to color and got a box of crayons. YAY
Got a cute picture of me and my mom together but i'll have to put it on here later. After filing which was way fun (and after 5 paper cuts haha) We went off to the Zoo with Jerimiah, Stephanie, and Jessica. It was pretty cool out suprisingly, then got way cold. But it was really fun! We saw this one Giraffe and it was RIGHT up by the fence and haha he had something in his mouth and were like what is it. It was a little wrapper piece and he was trying to get it off his tounge, it was so funny and sad. It just keptgetting stuck to his tongue. He finally got it off by rubbing his tongue against this poster and it came off but then he went back and picked it up to try to eat it again haha
Oh man it was the funniest thing, we got a little clip of a video but idk how to put it on here. Now I'm afraid of ducks, and chickens, and whatever animal with a sharp beak that is bigger then little birds. Like eagles are scary too. AH
I am way exhausted so I am gonna watch greys anatomy then hit the hay.
Love,
Holly Jean