Ouchy pain

It started out a happy day as it has been doing lately but because of stupid periods my days end badly. IN child care people were just being pissy! I wanted to slap them and say grow up. Then foods class was lame but the treat we made was pretty darn yummy. CJ is just a flipping jerk though. Afterwards was yearbook, I just continued to write more about my HIgh School life which is LONG and lots of ups and downs and some sadness I dont want to remember. People were being stupid in that class of course! I just want a hug from friends but sometimes I sure don't feel like I have friends in that class anymore. I never know. I am so ready for school to be over. Towards the end of 8th and on I was in SOOO much pain from cramps. It was so bad that I couldn't talk to anyone or I would say something mean. So I had to go home take ibprofin and read. then I took a nap, it was just horrible today. Then sadly I had to go to work. From 4:45pm-11:45pm. It was going pretty good not bad. But slowly people left and there was only 4 of us. It got Fing busy!!! ahh I wanted to pull out my hair, or scream or just walk out. I hate it when its busy, it reminds me of times I don't want to remember. Nate had to stay later to help, but I didn't want him to stay later. He didn't mind and I KNOW he likes me. and I just can't take guys liking me anymore. I'd love the closeness and attention but for some reason I just can't take them wanting to have me. Idk I am just never gonna be able to get married unless I figure out whats wrong with me. Maybe BYU-Idaho will help *crossing fingers*
I best get to bed, I have to get up at 7am to get ready for work at 7:45 ugh
Love always,
Holly Jean