Double shift?

I did not sleep well at all!! It could be cuz I was textin tell like 1:30 or 2ish. I kept falling in and out of sleep so it doesnt help the good sleeping process. I decided not to bring my cell phone to school for the beginner part. I survived just fine :D yay! During TA I went to the library and got the book "my sisters keeper" :) Then had to walk around the WHOLE school and out to portables to hand out midterm packets to teachers. My midterms are good :D All A's cuz i am so awesome! Then I went home and read and then off to seminary. I really needed a good lesson today but seniors had to walk to the institute building to register for institute. I was totally fine with that I just needed a lesson... I love my seminary teacher Brother Wardle but he doesn't pick on me as much which is fine but then I feel less important and makes me feel less spiritual and that he doesnt care as much. But he does just doesnt ever seem to ask whats wrong anymore like he used to. I miss that. :( Then I had to work at 3:30-6 it was pretty awesome. We have good times me and my employees, somedays haha
Then I came home and chilled for a bit then we went out to Coldstone YAY!!! Man I am just gaining for and more pounds, this isnt healthy. Then Cory called me from work saying they needed help cuz they have been way busy so I hurried home and got ready adn went to help. By the time I got there no one was really there so I helped stock and put things back into order. But Cory was in a bad mood :( I hate when he is in a bad mood. After an hour I left and here I am.
So I like Cory but everytime we make plans I lie and say something came up or I forgot to do this or whatever. I hate lying but why do I like him until our plans are almost there then I bail? Why am I so afraid of seeing him when I know he is way nice and hasnt done anything wrong? Were just friends too and we have a good time when we hang out. hmm I just dont get myself sometimes.
Period came today, its been a month 1/2 so now I dont have to worry. I'm sometimes afraid that one day when I still am not married that I wont have my period anymore and then I wont be able to have kids. I doubt that will happen but I still worry sometimes.
Well I am off to read my scriptures.
Love,
Holly Jean
p.s. my stretch marks sometimes hurt or are like sore. I hope thats normal. haha