LONG day!

I got up and went to school and found out there was an assembly. ugh so 1st and 2nd went by WAY slow. I came home and read, and took nap. I was told the 1st assembly was based on 4th and so seminary had 1st and so I went to the assembly which was the drumline and for once it was WAY WAY lame! Then I went to seminary to find out we had 2nd assembly and I was SO mad I wanted to cry because I really have been needing a lesson from seminary and I'v gotten nothing for about a week. :*( Then Nate and I left and went to coldstone, then wal-mart, then DI, then went to his car and he drove me around to all these scenary places.
The thing is, he is nice but I don't like him more then a friend and I am pretty sure he likes me more then a friend. Well I am off to work fmor 6-8:15, then I told him we would go see the pond after I get off to see if it glows at night. UGH what a long day, I have a headache too. I'm trying to eat healthy though. I just wanna sleep. I am off for the night.
Wish me luck with Nate.
Love always,
Holly Jean

Double shift?

I did not sleep well at all!! It could be cuz I was textin tell like 1:30 or 2ish. I kept falling in and out of sleep so it doesnt help the good sleeping process. I decided not to bring my cell phone to school for the beginner part. I survived just fine :D yay! During TA I went to the library and got the book "my sisters keeper" :) Then had to walk around the WHOLE school and out to portables to hand out midterm packets to teachers. My midterms are good :D All A's cuz i am so awesome! Then I went home and read and then off to seminary. I really needed a good lesson today but seniors had to walk to the institute building to register for institute. I was totally fine with that I just needed a lesson... I love my seminary teacher Brother Wardle but he doesn't pick on me as much which is fine but then I feel less important and makes me feel less spiritual and that he doesnt care as much. But he does just doesnt ever seem to ask whats wrong anymore like he used to. I miss that. :( Then I had to work at 3:30-6 it was pretty awesome. We have good times me and my employees, somedays haha
Then I came home and chilled for a bit then we went out to Coldstone YAY!!! Man I am just gaining for and more pounds, this isnt healthy. Then Cory called me from work saying they needed help cuz they have been way busy so I hurried home and got ready adn went to help. By the time I got there no one was really there so I helped stock and put things back into order. But Cory was in a bad mood :( I hate when he is in a bad mood. After an hour I left and here I am.
So I like Cory but everytime we make plans I lie and say something came up or I forgot to do this or whatever. I hate lying but why do I like him until our plans are almost there then I bail? Why am I so afraid of seeing him when I know he is way nice and hasnt done anything wrong? Were just friends too and we have a good time when we hang out. hmm I just dont get myself sometimes.
Period came today, its been a month 1/2 so now I dont have to worry. I'm sometimes afraid that one day when I still am not married that I wont have my period anymore and then I wont be able to have kids. I doubt that will happen but I still worry sometimes.
Well I am off to read my scriptures.
Love,
Holly Jean
p.s. my stretch marks sometimes hurt or are like sore. I hope thats normal. haha

Monday Monday

I got up for the day, it wasn't way bad outside but it was windy. We had a sub in Child care, oh joy! I hate the people in that class sometimes cuz lots of people talk about mormon stuff or whatever not in a nice way. Today they were talking about how they would never go on missions (they are girls) girls dont have to go so gosh! Then they were talking about what all the return missionaries have done and blah blah blah. But not everyone is perfect so dont think that everyone is like those couple bad missionaries. GRRR
The off to food YES!! I was so hungry, sadly my best friend Kate wasnt there :( and she didnt even text me back. Then off to foods class and CJ wasnt there thank heavens!!! :D We just did worksheets. Boring haha Then to yearbook, which was also boring. I just started putting together the 4 page spread about myself. I started writing my high school story, I got to 2 pages long and then school was over. Then I just relaxed and try to take a nap but people kept texting me!!!! and interuptting and grr i just was getting angry. Then I went to work, that wasn't bad. Nick makes me laugh haha and Cory worked with me for a bit, ive missed him so much. He just makes me smile. Then I came home oh yay
so i'm off to bed.
days just keep going by so fast
love,
Holly Jean

Crazy Sundays

I got up around 9 to get ready for Stake Conference. We got there and it was pretty good. Very spiritual, I didnt take TONS of notes though, my mom and I were trying to figure out this crossword puzzle. There was this little redhead girl 2 rows ahead of us and she was just SO cute, I've decided I want a redhead kid so I have to search for a redhead guy now haha
Laura made a little comment saying how I made her smile today just by seeing me. Thats so sweet :D
I came home and kept reading more of that book, its pretty crazy and long it seems. I am just so lazy and need to start exercising or something!!! Then we went to Merrill Osmonds fireside. Just before that i asked Tucker and Jessica if they liked the Osmonds and they both said no. How could they not!! They are amazing spiritual people. It suprised me. But I went and it was great, Merrills oldest son spoke first and he was just funny and sweet. Then Merrill came, and he was just wonderful. I never realized how much their family had down missionary work wise and everything. Then I had to give the prayer, I was nervous for saying a prayer in front of so many people so i spoke way fast and wished I hadnt afterward :(
But afterwards Merrill shook my hand :D It was great. You could tell by his presence how close he was to the Lord.
Now I came home and have been listening to old music like the carpents, queen, Jackson 5. I was born in the wrong time I think haha
Oh Tucker I have noticed texts me every Sunday saying something to the lines of "In case you don't hear it enough just though I would let you know you are a BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER OF GOD!" Thats so sweet huh? I think he probably sends it to more girls then just me. But I'd like to think its just to me ;)
He is such a sweet guy most the time haha
Well I better get some sleep.
Love always,
Holly Jean

Slept in

Oh I slept in it was great!!! SO refreshing. Last night at work was crazy Jorge just walked out for some reason not sure why yet. And cars kept coming and more people it was crazy I wanted to scream!!! ahh but it all went okay. I pretty much miss Cory, I havent seen him in a week. :(
Today waS just relaxing I just was lazy then got ready and worked on my graduating annoucnments and got them down, just need 2 more addresses and they are complete. :D Yay how exciting!!! Then just been chilling out here not doing much else but reading this book I got called "The memory keeper's daughter", its not too bad pretty good. I wanted to find the "My sisters keeper" book but can't find it anywhere. I am off for the night.
Night!
Love,
Holly Jean

Who cares anymore

Here are some pictures from the adventure at the ZOO!!!

Me being eaten by a Lion, AHH

I STOPPED the world!
< This is my new boyfriend, George, he's a good kisser haha

Today wasn't bad I just went to class, and helped some peer tutors make cookies, and muffins. It was pretty fun, Kendall didnt want to do much though haha. Then off to the office, ugh so boring. I was kinda of angry too so I just sat there. It always seems like they want me to talk to them but then when I start it seems like they dont want me to! ugh I just don't get it.
Then I went home to relax and took a little nap, didn't do much.
Now I am angry though, I'm tying not to be but ugh I'm graduating and part of my family can't even come it just seems pointless to even graduate when your own family won't support you. I worked hard for nothing, except for myself. But I do enough for myself.
Anyway my brother might not be able to come which I understand why I just really hope he gives an effort to try to come, and then my sister (stephanie) isn't going cuz she has a scuba class, that I guess she "can't" miss cuz she might miss an important lesson BUT I think she could miss ONE for her OWN sister! I went to all of theirs, and I know I HAD to cuz I was still young but I wanted to! You only graduate from high school once! I just am angry about it!
I then went to seminary in a bad mood, we had some fun, but I just didnt feel like learning much today. Now I am just watching tv tell I have to work from 4:30-12. Ugh oh joy!

< Here is my other man Mr. Magnet. He can do just about anything! He is pretty flexible! :D What a handsome man.
Him and I are gonna go on an adventure someday and I'll show you all the pictures!!!
Well wish me luck at work! night
Love,
Holly Jean

Long day

Today was take your child to work day, so my mom took me to work with her. I had to get up at like 5:15am though ugh! She files at the wells fargo bank in Salt Lake. It was really pretty fun just I was sleepy lol
We did some fun activities only I was the oldest out of all the kids! like a 5 years difference lol
I did get to color and got a box of crayons. YAY
Got a cute picture of me and my mom together but i'll have to put it on here later. After filing which was way fun (and after 5 paper cuts haha) We went off to the Zoo with Jerimiah, Stephanie, and Jessica. It was pretty cool out suprisingly, then got way cold. But it was really fun! We saw this one Giraffe and it was RIGHT up by the fence and haha he had something in his mouth and were like what is it. It was a little wrapper piece and he was trying to get it off his tounge, it was so funny and sad. It just keptgetting stuck to his tongue. He finally got it off by rubbing his tongue against this poster and it came off but then he went back and picked it up to try to eat it again haha
Oh man it was the funniest thing, we got a little clip of a video but idk how to put it on here. Now I'm afraid of ducks, and chickens, and whatever animal with a sharp beak that is bigger then little birds. Like eagles are scary too. AH
I am way exhausted so I am gonna watch greys anatomy then hit the hay.
Love,
Holly Jean

Feeling out of shape

Off to school we go. Not a bad day but WAY slow. While I was TAing we were talking about how it was so boring today nothing was happeing. We spoke too soon cuz 2 cops came in with 4 students for smoking/sluffing. Then 5minutes later 4 more students for sluffing. It was crazy but I realized that cop uniforms look so uncomfortable.
I went home and made cookies for Nate, cuz his birthday is tomorrow. Then off to seminary I went. It was kind of hard today. I felt the spirit but then I had to prepare a devotional on Revelations 5, which is really hard. I kind of get it but not enough to want to share it with people.
Another beautfiul day out today! :D I went over to Arreana's house, i havent talked to her in forever!!! We just sat in her kitchen and talked for like 2 hours. Then I came home and rode my bike around the block and man did I feel out of shape because half way around our little block I had trouble breathing and had a hard time pedaling ugh.
That was pretty much it and watched my new favorite show The Unusuals. It's pretty sweet action.
I have to get up at 5:15 tomorrow so off to bed.
Night!
Love,
Holly Jean

Back to work

I was in a pretty good mood today and was off to child care. We were just chattting when my friend told me she has a class with CJ and he was talking about me yesterday. He didn't say my name but she knew who he was taking about. He was so pissed! My friend tried to stick up for me and she goes maybe she just wanted to go with a bunch of girls and he goes well i didnt see her with anyone. He is just acting like a girl I think.
I got to have lunch with my bestest friend Kate today!!! I love her to pieces, she is so much fun. :D Then I went to my foods class and thats where I have a class with CJ, I was talking with my teacher about it and she is totally on my side about the whole thing, I love her lol
Him and I just talked to everyone but eachother. So it wasnt too bad.
Then off to yearbook where we did basically nothing!! It was so lame, and people to gossip and gossip and I just hate it! Worry about your own life.
Oh Last night i totally had a dream about Cory, I walked into church and he was there he waved at me and smiled and I was like WOW cuz i never thought he would ever go to church. Then he went out the back door and I was watching him, and he started smoking! I was like I thought he stopped. It was crazy.
I havent worked for about a week, I went back today and it was weird. Maria came up to me and she goes so your dating Cory? And I go no! Then she goes you sure and I said yes! She goes u like him? and I said NO! Like leave me alone, gosh how the heck did she find out??? Only Kylie and Allie knew, I think Allie told but maybe Kylie did. They both have big mouths and I am just so pissed and angry! I didn't want anyone to know. We shouldn't of told anyone. ugh
Work wasnt too bad though. It was kinda slow and boring and they let me off early and I really need the money so ugh. Then came home and has just been chilling. but I REALLY wanna be a professional photography right now! Oh goodness haha
I just wish I had a better camera, and I would be trying to get pictures of people and stuff.
Well I better start getting ready for bed! Night
Love,
Holly Jean

Beautiful Day

Let's see well it was late start day today only haha I forgot so I drove to the parking lot and I'm like where the heck is everyone? I thought maybe they all thought of sluffing w/o me.

Then I went home and made myself breakfast for once, bacon yum yum.

It was basically a senior day today, we got our panoramic picture of us all and the sun was just a shining so bright in our eyes I bet HALF of us had our eyes closed. I'm like lets just have shades on and go 1, 2, 3 and pull them off. Or for one picture we could of just all closed our eyes haha

Then we got info on when graduation is and we ARE going to Lagoon YAY!!! I'm so very excited :D

I had TA for the office today and it was kinda frustrating cuz Whitney was there and she just did my job and so it was pointless for me to be there. Then they all just gossip like know other and I HATE IT! I know I gossip but not that much, once a week maybe. grr

I went home to sleep before 4th and I really need to stop taking naps before I go to a class or work haha cuz if I dont wake up like 10-15 minutes before I am still WAY sleepy and its hard to keep my eyes open and I just feel groggy and its not good to drive like that i'm thinking lol

Seminary wasnt too bad but this one junior guy in our class I really thought was this way good mormon. He always had pretty good answers and things but lately I have been finding out he actually hates church and he is forced to go. He hates watching general conference and all this stuff and i'm like HOW, how can you hate it. But then I think maybe this is his moment of hardship. I guess I should maybe try to help him.

It was SUCH a sunny, hot beautiful day outside that I went tanning in my backyard haha It was great. then I mostly just chilled inside and figured out which picture I should use for my graduation annoucments. It's between 2.

I am pretty tired and I have to work tomorrow for the first time in a week, ah its gonna be kinda hard.

Night!

Love,

Holly Jean

prom/weekend

Dude totally sorry things came up and I just needed to get away from technology for a bit.

Let me catch you up on a few things.

Friday: Was "Prom" day! Kaylee, Kristin and I went to Salt Lake City and went to build a bear!!! It was so much fun it was my first time there.

Here is my bear, her name is Honey.

Then we started to get ready for Prom around 4:30. It was stressful haah but we went to this cool italian resturant with Ms. Barney, Tyrel, Elora and 2 other people. It was really really nice. Here is what we looked like.

Then off to the dance which was SOO lame, the music was stupid and when you dont have a date its kinda boring especially during slow songs. We left around 11pm.

Saturday: I left around 8am to go to Idaho, I drove there for the first time by myself. I really needed a break from Utah life for right now. I thank Mallorie and Jon SOOO much for letting me stay. I got there around 11am without getting lost :D

We dropped Jon off at work and then Mallorie wanted to practice taking for pictures so she did of me. It was so much fun! Here are some of my favorites.

After that we went to go see "17 again", not a bad movie at all. Then walked around the mall and I got 2 cd's. That night we watched the movie "australia" it went on FOREVER, pretty good though. During it I got to feel little baby Cache kick, it was SOO cool. Man I love babies!

Sunday: We got up and got ready for church. It was pretty darn good. Then we relaxed for a little bit until we took the dogs out to walk around to the park. MAN am I out of shape! I could only run like 30 seconds then I was tired and out of breath. It was fun though, and super nice outside. Then I drove home which I got home saftely with no mistakes either :D

I just talked with my parents for a bit now just updatig you all. :D

Man am I super tired though, good night now!
Love,

Holly Jean

Sucky day

I had peer tutor today and one of kids got sick and was throwing up like every 25 minutes maybe. It was so gross and I hope none of us get sick, they didnt even take her home right away. ugh anywho but we did help the kids practice dancing for prom tomorrow. It was way cute! Then I went to the office where I ta and I was there all alone AGAIN!!! I'm really getting sick of that. I know I can do the job but still it'd be nice if I had some company. Then I went home to take a nap, then realized CJ deleted me off facebook, thank heavens cuz I was going to do the same thing with his. Then went to seminary, it was pretty good but seemed kind of long. Afterwards I took some pictures for Kaylee's yearbook page. Then later she did my nails.
I told my mom about Cory finally and she was okay with it, I hadn't gotten around to his age but of course ms. stephanie told mom. SO ta da she texted me and said this probably isnt a good idea. SO I GOT MAD AND was like FINE! and so now we are broken up, this is just great I am pissed off to no end!! I am 18 for crying out loud, I know I am under there roof but him and I never and would never do anything wrong. SO now things are all screwed up and he is probably never going to get the Book of Mormon I had ready for him. I am just so upset and and so close to tears.
I don't want to even see my mom right now, let alone talk to Stephanie! GRRR
So much for our date tonight, and i was really looking forward to going out for once.
This night is just so uncool. I hope tomorrow just lets me forget about everything. ugh
Well thats my lovely day, hope you had fun reading it.
Good bye!
Love,
Holly Jean

Snowy Day!

Hello Hello, here is 2 posts in a row, were getting somewhere. I woke up to blizzary snow outside. Oh great, come on its April!!! I got ready and off to school I went. Not too much exciting we had a assembly and lunch together so i went to go eat breakfast at Arby's and see April for the last time :( I am so sad she is living. I did run into Cory's ex girlfriend, awkward! If she knew I was dating him she might kill me, i'm pretty frightened.

Then all Allie ever does is give me crap about him, ugh gosh! Then I went back to for 7th and was not looking forward to seeing CJ but he ended up not coming. So I was texting him and grr what a jerk!! He pisses me out! Then during 8th I was texting my friend Jessica and she goes he is annoying dont let him get to you. So you know what I wont! I won't text him, talk to him or anything, I don't care anymore! Eighth hour was so much torture! It was killing me sitting there with people that just don't get me sometimes.

Off to get my prom dress hemmed, I am pretty excited. It took a little while then off to get my brakes fixed. :D It took 2 hours, and the lobby was cold brrr, Cory stopped by to keep my company while I waited.

I am just now really exhausted, and I realized if I sort game cards or sort anything in alphabetical order it tends to calm me down a bit.

Now here is a picture of Cory and me! :D

Love always,

Holly Jean

The beginning

Hi!

I hope I keep this updated as much as possible but you never know what life will throw at you. I'm sure once i'm a mother there will be all sorts of funny things that will happen but that won't be for awhile so bare with my boring stuff. :D

I am a senior at Tooele High School and I have about 32 school days left tell I graduate! How very excited I can't wait. I will admit i'm a little nervous to leave home and my family but I am ready to move on in life.

I just got done babysitting my friend Kylie's kids Emily, and Alizabeth. They are just TOO cute! I'll post pictures down below. Let's see, she is about 22 and is expecting another baby, a boy in September. I work with her at Arby's, she is one of my managers. She has a crazy life but once again i'll be a wonderful person and help her with her hard problems like I always do with everyone. Yes one day it just might wear me down but it makes them happy and it makes me happy that I can make someone happy. :D

I'm just texting my babe (Cory), he's at work right now. He work's at Arbys with me as well. Let me tell you about him...

He is 22, not a member but he is letting me give him a Book of Mormon. I was WAY excited when I found out he was going to let me give him one! He used to smoke but I helped him stop, he drinks but hasn't for awhile because he is either at work or with me :) He swears but is getting a lot better because I've asked him to stop using that kind of language. Last but not least he is always there for me and cares. He would NEVER do anything I didn't want to do, which means alot to me. My past boyfriends didn't say it and sure never listened when I said no! He knows that this relationship will probably never go to marraige. We have decided that us being together might help/teach us both something for our future realtionships. I sure miss him right now but I get to see him on Thursday!

I'll try to attach a picture of him and I as soon as we get some together haha

Love always,

Holly Jean

"Sometimes words fail, so kiss away!" ;)

Emily, 2 1/2

Alizabeth, 8 months?